Glimpses Through the Window
I was sitting at my desk, staring out into the sunlit backyard, when I had a vision of another life. It was as though it was playing on a hidden screen hanging from the trees and I was watching it like I would a film. I could see me, with time enough in my day for writing, running, friends and love. I saw myself pursuing a career that brought me great fulfillment and a sense of purpose. I was smiling as if my heart contained nothing but joy.
I closed my eyes for only a moment and the vision disappeared.
Part of me ached to run into the backyard and find the vision, jump into the screen and be transported to that life. Part of me, the part that closed my eyes and caused it to disappear, hung back, afraid to get too close.
What is it about us that causes us to cling to that which is familiar even if we can see that by letting go, trying something new, pursuing our dreams, we may be so much happier?
Why did I close my eyes?
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Reader Comments (2)
Something that applies to me and most other people: "This population does not handle transitions well." It is something I read in documentation about people with Down Syndrome (and let me tell you it was right on!) but I've been using it ever since because it applies to me, too.
It's hard to walk away from stability, even if it isn't ideal stability, and reach for something uncertain and new.
In other words, you aren't alone.
I have visions and dreams like that all the time. It's so hard when you snap back to reality. I don't find that, for myself, it is the fear though that makes me draw back, but the pain of not being there already. <3