In Flux
I've heard the phrase, "so-and-so is in a state of flux," all my life. Given the context it was always uttered in, I assumed that it meant the person was facing tremendous change or indecision. It rarely seemed like a positive experience but it also always had a temporary feel to it, as if even in the midst of it, the person knew it would end.
When I was trying to think of how to describe what I've been going through lately, that phrase leapt to mind. And being the lover of words and phrases and their meanings, as I am, I decided to look up what its common definition is.
However, I typed in the search term incorrectly. I typed in "in flux" instead of "in a state of flux." When the meaning wasn't really close to what I had always assumed it was, I looked again at what I had entered and saw the mistake and corrected it.
According to the freedictionary.com, "in a state of flux" means: "a state of uncertainty about what should be done." So, I was right. But it didn't really ring true once I read it. I don't feel uncertain about what to do. And I hope this isn't temporary. So I went back to the meaning for "in flux."
According to dictionary.com, "in flux" means: "the act of flowing in; the place at which one stream flows into another or into the sea." Yes, that's more like it. I am doing more, experimenting more, and going more than I have in years. I am trying on activities like I try on shoes... randomly and with abandon. I'm keeping those I like, that feel good and discarding the others. I'm not analyzing any of it. If it feels like something I can walk in, I keep it. I'm keeping the things that fit.
I am experiencing in flux.
Finally.
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Reader Comments (4)
How lovely that you know what you are going thru and embracing it. Dare I say enjoying it. What an exciting time for you.
I'm so thankful to be sharing in this journey with you, even remotely or virtually. Being "in flux" is definintely a positive place to be, in the way you describe it. I have another friend who has felt "in limbo" or "in transition" for a long while. I'm going to share this post with her. I don't know if she will connect with it, but I did, and I thank you for sharing your journey.
Mary, Sue -- Thank you so much for reading and the kind comments. I count on you both more than you probably even realize. You give me encouragement and support before I even have to ask. I couldn't do a lot of what I do without great friends like you. Thank you!
I think that is absolutely wonderful. Although I have to say I disagree with the "in a state of flux" definition you found. That doesn't sound at all how I've heard the phrase used my entire life. I'm glad you found one that fit, though. :) I still think you're pretty awesome. :)