Out of Line

Do you know those wonderful moments in life when everything you do executes perfectly, you always find the right words and all you touch turns to gold? Some people say those are the times all your stars are aligned or you're on top of your game. You can do no wrong. Those are shining moments.

Well, I've not had one of those moments for a long while. Whatever the opposite of being on top of your game is, that's where I am. And I don't think any of my stars are even speaking to each other, let alone aligning. 

Lately, it feels like I've lost my ability to connect... with others, my work, myself. I'm struggling to be heard --no, I'm struggling to be understood-- and in the process, saying things that either alienate others or result in me having the distinct taste of shoe leather in my mouth. I'm reaching out and nobody's there. I try to give and get pushed aside. I feel like I'm in the way and that goes for being in my own way, too.

It's difficult, when so much of my life is communicating, to be in a slump like this. I feel like I need to try harder and yet in doing so, I tend to make things worse. So I back off and then people think I'm aloof or mad or something, but I don't know what they think because we aren't talking. 

I know this is just one of those unshining moments life tends to hand out once in a while and things will turn around but in the meantime, ouch. Just know that I'm aware of it and trying to get back into the groove but if any of you know anything about star wrangling, I'd be most appreciative. 

Comments

[Mary]

I am lagging in responding to new posts. Forgive me. I'm sorry you are struggling right now, but this is just a temporary curve in the road. You will find your way soon. xoxo

[Mo]

I know how you feel. I've been struggling to connect online and off. I'm not sure what to do about it—I'm hoping it passes soon. For both of us!